its not over. its just started. its been 10 months and two days, usually i`d rather leave and hang out with my friends or be alone. thinking up of reasons to break up. thats what has happened before. the only thing i hung on was the feeling of being alone, then.
what takes relationships to work? guess the only thing would be wanting it to work. and to be honest it takes alot of mistakes to know that. alot of misjudgments. hurt. tears. happiness and laughter. understanding. want.
i never thought a woman could give me the total satisfaction of being with her. gratitude. im not easy to be with. my close friends know that. paranoid beyond reason. i talk of trust but yet fail to trust when i need to. scenarios of mistrust run all over my mind, with but one miss call. yet now, its different. how much love and care does it take to do that? i wish i had a machine or a universal scale. i dont but even if i did, convert that into percentage and i`d get a hundred out of hundred.
relationships are hard for me because of me. external factors, experience, my own genes. my need for my sense of security. take that all into an equation and you get my dysfunctional mind. and yet again you stuck by me. sacrificed so much for me. i cant talk of change for the better because i didnt change but still you stayed. gratitude. i loved you so much for that.
i know in many ways and times i`ve tried to tell you this, failed miserably. the good things in life are so hard to find. i got someone i needed, someone i didnt know i wanted. i got both. i got you. i love you so much for that.
we have come this far because of you. and we are going to live a happy life. 11 months later, 10 years later. because of you. and making me know that makes me love you even more. i cant tell you enough, i cant sing or write enough of how much you mean to me. this is as close as i can get to express it; if sugar turned sour, and blood filled the rivers, if the sun blocks out, and even if i get diagnosed with cancer, i woudnt mind if you are there with me. my best friend, my Angel.
what takes relationships to work? guess the only thing would be wanting it to work. and to be honest it takes alot of mistakes to know that. alot of misjudgments. hurt. tears. happiness and laughter. understanding. want.
i never thought a woman could give me the total satisfaction of being with her. gratitude. im not easy to be with. my close friends know that. paranoid beyond reason. i talk of trust but yet fail to trust when i need to. scenarios of mistrust run all over my mind, with but one miss call. yet now, its different. how much love and care does it take to do that? i wish i had a machine or a universal scale. i dont but even if i did, convert that into percentage and i`d get a hundred out of hundred.
relationships are hard for me because of me. external factors, experience, my own genes. my need for my sense of security. take that all into an equation and you get my dysfunctional mind. and yet again you stuck by me. sacrificed so much for me. i cant talk of change for the better because i didnt change but still you stayed. gratitude. i loved you so much for that.
i know in many ways and times i`ve tried to tell you this, failed miserably. the good things in life are so hard to find. i got someone i needed, someone i didnt know i wanted. i got both. i got you. i love you so much for that.
we have come this far because of you. and we are going to live a happy life. 11 months later, 10 years later. because of you. and making me know that makes me love you even more. i cant tell you enough, i cant sing or write enough of how much you mean to me. this is as close as i can get to express it; if sugar turned sour, and blood filled the rivers, if the sun blocks out, and even if i get diagnosed with cancer, i woudnt mind if you are there with me. my best friend, my Angel.
7 comments:
so sweeet! wish u both a happy life :)
aww.. so sweet!
u shud show this to her and all :D
:'(
very touchin schmarts..
its not only coz of me, its coz of us. love u too hun..infront of ur words, no words are good enough to say how much i do love u..:D
nice piece.... i believe its the committment and understanding that counts in the relationship most...
if there isn't even a fraction of difference among 2 ppl...it makes it dull..isn't it ;) its gud to have some difference....
I understand the mutuality in it...
i just marked my 7 year anniversary...just coudnt resist saying it after reading such a touching article...
wish u both togetherness forever...
im hapy for u dude. mihaaru ekamu haadha nufeneyey.
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