thoughts for someone i love

i dont know how i will ever tell you this. there are times when life makes us go crazy. when life makes no sense. and the only thing we can think about is why? i dont know why God picked on you. I dont know why he made you suffer. I dont know why he made you loose faith in him being fair. Aslu as screwed up as I am, i guess im not the perfect person to tell you that life is going to be better. Just there is something i would like to say. In my life people have hurt me. And if God had a will in that or not i dont know. He has taken people around me. People who i have loved. I have lost friends and few more. I have no connections with many of my family. God willed that or i did it to myself i dont know. Maybe i do but then again that is something i never want to think about. People have hurt me. People have betrayed me. People have lied to me. People have left me. I just want to promise you something. Life brings us waves and waves of misfortune. And there comes people distinctively to hurt us. Its like they have a factory for it and they do come. But i promise to stand by you. Through lifes deceptions on whats right and wrong i`ll be there to help you choose. I`ll help you smile when you dont want to. Help you cry when you need to. I promise you that i wont give God a chance for him to make it possible for me to screw up what i have with you. He can never get that chance. Because i Feel free with you. i can smile. I love you Angel; i would never leave you and i promise to never change.