mindless

he`s waiting in the dark. looking for a way out. he`s eyes adjusted to the blackness surrounding him, he see`s a sliver of light. he tries to move towards it but he`s held by unlimited amounts of chains. snarling and clawing at his misfortune he decides to wait. with time one by one his chains leave him. he feels happy. he almost hopes. he dreams.
a blue and black hole. he`s floating. above land or below sea he did not know. was he even in a medium? he looks up for the light he seeks. listen for the rustle of wings. but its empty. he`s hollow. he wakes up.
he`s chains are gone but what to do now? go towards the light? what did it hold? more chains perhaps? what should he do? sit in this darkness, his abode for so long or leave it into light, of which he knows nothing. he decides to move towards it. maybe get a small glimpse. maybe a small taste. but that would have been too easy. inch by inch he got closer when suddenly he`s jerked into the light. ages of being alone, he had no intention of crying for help. noone would come. he did not even know if anyone else existed. so he let himself be pulled in. he closes his eyes.
it was warm. he remembered his past. he was an infant once and people did exist then. he remembered this warmth. of being held close. he remembered hearing this perfect beat of what people called the heart. he also remembered being pulled away. helpless he would feel but no tears nor cries of pain brought back that warmth until it wanted him. that made him angry, he opens his eyes.
white surrounded him. the brightness surprised him. it bothered him. his anger turned to fear. why was it so bright? something had to be dark? how can brightness exist without the dark? he started moving. if he was going towards anything or not, he moved. looking for just a flaw in this brightness. belief, something he had lost, was it coming back to him? Was all he lost returning to him? could he learn to smile again? thoughts running through his head he see`s a lost soul. he thought of what he would say. what he would ask. if even it would reply.

"i do not smile, i do not laugh, i do not seek heed, living in the past." it said.
"i am lost, i am alone, i have nothing to give you, except my past." he replied.
"go on, get lost, you have nothing to offer me, except your pitiful past." it replied.
"kill me, free me, i do not want to live a lie, but before you do accept my past." he replied.
"loathe me, curse me, for i do not give a damn, but go away i do not want your past" it replied.
"i am what i am, i change for no one, i will not go away till you accept my past." he said.
"crazens have come, foolers have gone, but you still stand here, i will accept your past." it said.