races worth running

sun shines, blue skies,marmalade and jam,
its annoying when it happens, when you really believe being sane,
life's uncanny ability to scream into your face,
when you need peace and never keep up to its pace,
5 years old and already scrawny,
it wasn't easy, we never had Barny,
bored as hell with reruns and fighting mutants,
hoping for something new with no talking elephants,
life just moves on never looks back,
just makes you change, never ever good for heck,
fat as a new fed cow, inhaling burgers,
it becomes your outlet, friends posing as fakers,
join the school band, hoping for just one ability,
life strikes again, "a fat ass" being a disability,
again life moves on, and it gives you new feelings,
girls stop become annoying, their bodies get new meanings,
stopping your mom from dressing you up,
pleading your dad for new glasses and interval money instead of syrup,
walking home, with freshly made hair,
making sure girls looked on when you walk in flair,
never knowing they never looked up, never cared,
never knowing that life's just never that good, and you my friend was never spared,
now your forty, your hands on your face,
smoking like a chimney, life moving on with its pace,
sitting alone in a boring dead end job,
hoping against hope your hypocritical boss doesn't call you a slob,
thinking about how life just screwed you up and let you down,
listening to a new song thinking you never had a chance, you frown.

"but i cant do this on my own, no i know, i`m no superman".... (Superman - Lazlo Bane)

life's scary, life's full of surprises, many of them very scary and you always get the feeling you are never going to be able to handle it and even if you are going to how??? but sitting down thinking about it forever doesn't help. life gives you chances to do the right thing however scared you are, you have to do it. some need a little bit of a nudge, others a shoulder to cry on and mostly a sense of total security but in reality you just need yourself. living life is the biggest race we ever get to run and the funny thing is we all think our lives are harder than the person next to us. its never easy being human, but someone told me something i forgot for a long time. "if life was easy, we wouldn't be here, we would be up there in heaven, there wouldn't be rules, there wouldn't be disappointment and better yet there would be nothing to fear".. i miss you kuda mom.